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Name: Scarlett
Gender: Female
Interests: I'm a lover of music and the arts. I like dark nights, loud music, and fast cars. I like excitment!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
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Member Since:
10/30/2005
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| I hardly write on this thing, its from my darker days and I seem to get swept up into somber moods when I type away.
I've been reminded today of my past self.
Hunched over a desk writing my dark thoughts onto paper in neat poetic lines that seemed to flow endlessly.
A Boy I haven't talked to in 5 years sent me a message today with a paragraph I had written. He told me he had watched me write it and wrote it down because he liked it so much. Ha it's funny and a bit of a compliment I guess.
Just reminded me of the old me.
I used to write, now I just take a lot of photos. | | |
| Lately I have been having sleeping issues. I'm not sure how long this has been going on for. Whenever midnight rolls around I find my self incapable of sleep no matter how hard I try. It's really irritating, especially since I have 8 am classes. I like sleeping! And yet I can't get any sleep anymore. And I'm so damn tired all the time. BLEH! Maybe it's all the stress and nerves | | |
| I broke up with my boyfriend, so I suppose now I should call him my ex. Oddly I feel almost in a way more sad then when I get dumped. I can't stand knowing that I'm causing him pain. I still love him so much, and I miss him every day.... just I feel like I don't have that Romantic attachment anymore idk how this happened. I feel like crap. I'm scared he will leave my life and I don't want that. It's just not fair to him or me, to live in a lie. I miss him though. So much. | | |
| Life seems like such a let down. Dreams I had when I was young... I wish I could really dream again. Maybe back in the depressed days, if I had a looking glass, maybe I would have sucessfully off'd myself. *sigh* And these days im just to damn sensible and a mix of apathetic to really cut the ties. I used to tell myself I would get rid of this stupid xanga when I got to college.... but I think if I got rid of it my life would be just that much more boring.. who knows. | | |
| I'm 19... I'm angry.. I'm sad... and nobody gives a fuck. Happy Birthday to me! | | |
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